The Line

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~ Charles H. Spurgeon





On this day, two years ago, my life was changed forever.

I would not have chosen those words to describe my experience if a dear friend had not said it exactly that way to prepare me for what she had already known. In fact, it might have taken me many years to draw my experience into such a capsule.

As a result of that gentle and wise forewarning, I am strongly feeling the sense of demarcation, the distinct separation between life with Mama and life without her.

I don’t want to give the impression that life was all joy before that day, or that it has been perpetual sorrow since that moment. My deepest times of grief have been used by the Holy Spirit to teach me true joy and contentment. Thrown in contrast against those bleak backgrounds, the fruit was undeniable. By grace, I sing with the psalmist,

My flesh and my heart fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

No, I am not awash with tears, nor am I at my mother’s gravesite commemorating the anniversary of her passing. Still, you will not hear me say, “I know this is what she would have wanted.” Honestly, she might have wanted precisely that, though she was good enough never to voice any expectations. She left me alone to remember her in my own way, and I am grateful for that.

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. ~ II Corinthians 1:3-5

Sweet host of souls that loved my mom and poured out to show just how much they did, I thank you.

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