Exposure: Week Nineteen

A picture of 
your biggest 
insecurity.

Honestly, I have not looked forward to this week's post. One might think that is because I am hesitant to admit to any insecurities or to share them this openly, but that is not the case. Yes, I am a pretty private individual, but I have committed to this exercise of "exposure," and I am not going to allow that to hinder my posting.

insecurity - lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt

Based on that definition, I don't consider myself someone who really lacks security, in the above sense of the word. I know pretty well the limits of my actual abilities, how much I'm willing to work (or not to work) to discover my true potential, and what my biggest strengths and weaknesses are. I don't mind being challenged to stretch myself, either. However, to think that I am the epitome of self-confidence, or that I even demonstrate utter reliance upon and trust in the God who gave me everything I possess, would be presumptuous, I think.

So, what's my biggest insecurity?

Like Piglet, sometimes I just need a simple reassurance. If a moment of awkwardness with someone dear is followed by emotional distance or uncharacteristic silence, I am suddenly stuck thinking, "I just wanted to be sure of you" again.

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